James

Sun, 18 May 2003 09:59:29 GMT

Weird, very weird she is, but amusing.

As for the current situation I just hope that things will turn out all right for everyone involved.

I think I will have to be helping Jack clean his place tomorrow for Amber's arrival in June. It is so messy there, and I do not care, but I am sure that it is not fit for any guests, heh. It will probably take that long to clean it.

I told you my life is boring. I went out today though and it was cool.

Sat, 17 May 2003 20:29:51 GMT

Well, like Jack, it looks like I am becoming a spammer. I just do not have anything to say, but feel compelled to tell the world about the stupid little commonlife things that are happening right here and now.

Nap time.

Wow.

Fri, 16 May 2003 15:54:48 GMT

I have discovered that there is something worse than a 14 year old behaving like a 4 year old (give or take ten years, ha). And that is a 20 year old behaving like a 2 year old.

Sun, 11 May 2003 20:08:28 GMT

Well that does it. I am being told to do something...and I do not know if I can bring myself to. But whatever....

Fri, 09 May 2003 03:07:00 GMT

I am sorry that last entry was a filtered post to one person and I forgot to use the filter so if you saw it do not mind it, I am dumb sometimes.

Wed, 07 May 2003 11:37:50 GMT

I would like to thank aurenfaie for my icon:

I like it very much.

I also like Jack's poem "tyrrannical fingers" at the Flower Kiss site. It says a lot about the situation.

Fri, 07 Mar 2003 11:00:53 GMT

Okay, I am with Jack here and I am very tired but at the same time I am awake because I am very, very, very angry.

I have read something extremely obnoxious and offensive and know why I needed to be here for him tonight. I am tired of people thinking stupid things about Jack because he is trans. I have never known Jack as female, ever. It does not matter to me that he was born that way because he does not act like it nor does he behave like a girl and when he is around me or close to me I do not feel anything but a guy there. He taught me that gender can be mis-assigned(?) and that it is possible for people like him to correct it. And as far as I know his ex girlfriends did not be with him as a girl but as who he is.

So when I read something like what Anthea wrote to him I get angry (and I rarely get angry) because it is the epitome of ignorance. It is also upsetting because I know that he loves her so very much. It was such blatant ignorance and rudeness that it has changed my view of her almost completely but since I know for a fact that he still loves her even so, I must acknowledge that and respect it.

I cannot believe what I read. But now I am out of words so I will say nothing more and hope that Jack does not hate me for this entry. Oh and I will be here for a while too, I do not know how long. I love being here, I always get to do what I want.

Wed, 05 Mar 2003 06:24:46 GMT

Wow, it has been a long time I think, since I wrote in this. I don't have much to say really since it is mostly something I got because of Jack. Well as of now I am pretty clueless as to what is or is not going on with him and Anthea so I will not even try "going there". It simply sounds odd.

I am very, very tired but I do have a renewed curiosity about myself tonight so I might just surf.

Excuse me while I scream and wax poetic about this world.

Fri, 14 Feb 2003 08:31:16 GMT

He was coughing up blood last night and has had chest pains that shot all the way through his back since three days ago. This thing he has whatever it is sent him to the same hospital last year over night with weird blood things attached to his hand and an IV but he checked out early because he did not want to miss being with his friend Dean from Sac. What did the same hospital do tonight? They sent him home with a prescription for pain medications and a few pills. They said they think it is a pulled muscle internally (???). I think the emergency room doctors are full of crap and if he dies because of this then I am going to seriously kill someone.

I am so violently mad right now. I am staying with Jack tonight to make sure he is O.K.

Anyways Daniela arrived before the hospital ridiculousness and did not bring all of the supplies he needed as well. His cats are out of cat litter so I think I will get it for him somehow. Oh and speaking of Daniela, guess what, she is engaged (my eagle eye saw the tacky ring on her finger when we were on BART). Yes, not one month or so ago she left him and now she is going to marry someone. It is more proof of her impulsiveness but whatever, I do not care much for her now anyway, but at least she was pleasant when we went back to the city.

Now for the weird poetic stuff I was talking about. I experienced the oddest sense of deja vu on BART when we were coming back. We sat across from the same dyke reading some health magazine and wearing a purple Farrakan-like hat, the same tall semi-preppy British looking guy with brown hair and blonde almost nonexistent eyebrows reading a textbook and wearing scuffed maroon leather bowling shoes similar to that of his seatmate's (the dyke with the purple hat, she also had a palm pilot) that I swear I have seen or been at that spot before. I looked over my shoulder to a man's newspaper and saw the same article I swear I have seen before, the one about North Korean nuclear missles being able to reach California (a scary, scary article that made me want to move to Australia.) When I turned back to my frontal range of view the purple hatted dyke was staring at me and I nodded, she smiled. I had experienced it all before, somewhere in time or space. Jack himself slept on the way back to his place.

And I am here too. I worry about him all of the time. I know that he loves Anthea/Mallory deeply and is depressed about the situation but maybe Amber will stay around *am not saying anything more for it would not be proper of me to do so*. Oh yeah he was writing more of the movie script that he was talking about with Anthea while we were waiting in the emergency room. It sounds really cool but I do not know if it is anything that Anthea would have thought of as he has made it more of a twisted story about fangirls(?) and fame. But after The Countess I have every bit of faith that he will do an excellent job and maybe this one will get bought by someone since the other is very long. I wish someone would buy The Countess and make it into a movie because I know a whole lot of people would go see it. It rocks, and I would like to see the guy who made Interview with the Vampire make it because it seems like he would do a good job, and Jack agrees.

Wow, I have not written an entry this long until now. I must be really bored. I am reading Prisoner of Azkaban and I am also surfing online for stuff and I see that they are already filming it. Very cool, because I liked the first two very much. Jack has two shiney silver stickers of the girl who plays Hermione on his computer hard drive, so it is hard to get away from Harry Potter even just sitting here. Hmm.

Mm, also tonight I think I realized that I do not like people very much. Jack feels the same way. We both spend a lot of time on the computer (okay he spends most all of his time on the computer) and human contact does not seem all that important except for between people we like, though tonight Jack did have a really cute nurse who was really nice to him and I watched as he held his arm out so she could put his wrist band on and I thnk he faked not being able to hold his arm still so she would have to take more time putting it on, ha ha.

Okay this was pretty long so I think I will stop now before I bore everyone to death.

Well one thing though I think I need pictures or something because I feel even more boring without some cool icon things for this Live Journal.

Fri, 14 Feb 2003 00:50:14 GMT

Er okay, I was ignored By Anthea. *shrugs*

Just IMed to say that I was going to be busy taking my best bud to the hospital and now I am writing this for general knowledge. I will be taking Jack to St. Francis and I do not know how long if at all he will stay there for whatever it is he has.

*worry*

yawns

Wed, 12 Feb 2003 18:39:57 GMT

Jeez, Jack has a lot of crap.

I am staying at Jack's for the night, cool.

Wed, 12 Feb 2003 04:26:58 GMT

We watched Fight Club. I think I have seen that movie at least 20 times by now. I also I caught that I had a messed up quote on my information page, so I fixed it.

I also talked for a long time with Amber on Yahoo! She's a very sweet girl and has an almost southern accent (okay, so Indiana is not quite southern but it's close and that's where Jack was born too, so...) and it is endearing. One could fall in love with that very easily.

And speaking of love matters it seems that I have stumbled upon more than I can understand once I arrived. There is more discord in Jack's life than I have ever seen and I am worried about it. I saw he had Anthea's IM up and it was interesting to say the least. She is certainly a character all right but he seems to love her, so I cannot say anything bad about it. All I can do is offer him my support when he needs it and it looks like he needs it now that she has left him from what I could read in the IMs. Eh, and I was happy to see Jack happy, for once and it is sad reading through the trail on LiveJournal of what might have happened. Oh and his new background is really neat. I like Tori Amos.

Anyway, after the movie and chatting with Amber we went to McDonald's (Jack hates McD's) wher he bought us dinner. Mm, fries! When we walked past some apartment buildings it smelled like someone was burning candles (smell of burnt wax) and when we came back it smelled like someone had burnt popcorn in the hall. Yuck.

I am really tired now though, and will be crashing soon. Maybe I'll watch Fight Club again *grins*.

Tue, 11 Feb 2003 22:32:36 GMT

I am going to be at Jack's for a while. I think he needs my support and encouragement.

Tue, 11 Feb 2003 19:36:49 GMT

Bleh. I do not like AOL IM much. I like the smileys better on Yahoo!. *switches*

I should probably find a community to join or something but I am not sure where to go or what to look for. And I like cackle. It looks like Jack and Martine have fun. It looks like a weird MTV thing where the guys go around ambushing people with stupid questions just to see what their reactions will be.

Tired today, maybe I'll just read or something.

An attempt at a journal entry

Sat, 08 Feb 2003 09:30:19 GMT

I do not normally like writing in journals as I find it awkward to type fleeting thoughts in my head for people to read or see. It just seems like a dumb concept since thoughts are fleeting, and who would want to save a fleeting thought? But since I got this I will try.

Wow, I am up late tonight, but I am about to go to bed. I guess time flies when you are having fun in Photoshop.

I saw something in someone's journal that was extremely upsetting to a close friend of mine. I am a bit disturbed at the lack of maturity displayed but then again I can only know so much about the whole thing.

Going to bed now and maybe I will turn on AOL IM when I wake. I do not feel like doing much but going online tomorrow.

Tue, 04 Feb 2003 02:36:25 GMT

This site ate my last post but I wanted to say thanks and that I had almost forgotten that I had this journal until Jack said something about it.

Um, I don't know what is going on with those two but I hope they are O.K.

My life is boring, so I don't see any point in writing about it.

Sat, 01 Feb 2003 08:20:11 GMT

I am so tired, but relieved!!!!!!

Sat, 01 Feb 2003 04:17:42 GMT

I forgot to give people my Y!M handle because that's what I use most, especially when others use the computer. It's "eddievblundht".

Fri, 31 Jan 2003 05:15:05 GMT